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上星期六十九号原本计划想理个发,但是不知怎么搞的没理到…

上星期日二十号原本计划想下怡保看《赤壁》,但又因为手头上有点紧,去不成…

最近在想着把之前开不成功的Blogger部落格重整起来,但却想不到一个好的名字给它…

19 July, last Saturday, I was planning to go for a hair cut, but don’t know what’s the reason I didn’t go for it…

20 July, last Sunday, I was planning to go to Ipoh to watch the movie ‘Red Cliff’, but because of my pocket these days is a bit tied, can’t go…

Recently also planning for the reformation for the Blogger blog, but I can’t think of a better name to fit the blog…

寂寞 Loneliness

你寂寞吗?你感觉到寂寞的存在吗?其实寂寞是很友善的东西,可如果应付不来,那它就是可怕的东西。

寂寞会让你空出很多时间来思考,好的坏的。寂寞的时候,我们会想,为什么没人来找我?为什么我这么寂寞?为什么别人有的我没有?等等的问题都会出现,只是这些问题问对了吗?

寂寞会让你想起从前,开心的伤心的。寂寞的时候,我们会想,过去那么快乐,为什么今天却要板着脸孔?他们都不在了,我还剩下什么?他们变了,还是我自己变了?等等的问题都会出现,只是这些问题问对了吗?

有些问题是不必要的,可我自己却会钻牛角尖地去思考;有些问题是很重要的,可我自己却完全没去顾虑到!

寂寞的时候,也许是个停顿点,让我们在生活中歇口气。在这歇口气的当儿,也就是我们自我检讨的时间。检讨自己这些日子里所做过的事情,所犯下的错。但这检讨并不是埋怨,并不是责怪,而是然自己知道自己成长了多少。

寂寞的时候,问了自己那么多问题。其中有的有答案,有的却空悬在脑中,成了生活的障碍,导致自己自找的烦恼。有的人能够从寂寞中思考出此类问题的答案,有的却需要到旁人的帮忙或辅导。

这些日子一直认为,无论生活在任何阶段,我们都必须有个红颜知己,有个能够了解自己或倾诉的对象。心灵上有了依靠,生活才会走在正规上,生活才会有目标。

其实这一篇是写给我自己看的,提醒我自己别再过着自找烦恼的生活。可我是否会真正的了解呢?

Do you feel lonely? Can you feel the loneliness around you? From a point of view, loneliness is a good feeling, but if can’t handle it wisely, it is a harmful feel.

Lonely gives you more time to think, either good or bad thinking. When the loneliness comes, we’ll think of, “Why there’s no other people come and fine me?”, “Why am I feeling so lonely?”, “Why others have it but not me?” Many other questions will appear, it’s just the matter of, are we been asked by ourselves correctly?

Lonely recalls your memories, either happiness or sadness. When the loneliness comes, we’ll think of, “I’m happy in the past, but why not today?”, “They are not here anymore, what has been left for me?”, “They changed, or I changed?” Many more questions will appear, it’s just the matter of, are we been asked correctly?

Some questions are not necessary to ask, but I am the one who think of it all the time; some questions are fairly important, but I’m not even care about it!

When feeling lonely, it might be a stop point, for us to rest in our busy life. In the time we rest, it might be the time to do some self-criticism. Have a review or what have we done these days, what had we wrong these days. These criticisms isn’t blaming, nor excusing, but to know how much had we grew since than…

When feeling lonely, asked our own so many questions. There are some questions with answer, but some still hanging within our mind, and became an obstacle of our life, in the end make ourselves unhappy. Some people can give them the answers for those questions, but some still need helps or counseling from others.

These days, I have been agreeing of, no matter where we are, we should have a mate who knows ourselves, who can talk with almost anything. When our spirit has something to rely on, than only our life can be on the correct path and the objectives of daily life will be targeted clearly.

Actually, this post I had been writing is for me and myself to read, awakes me not to live a trouble life. But will I truly understand it?

迷路 Lost

又来了… 我又迷路了。

不知道自己要的是什么,不知道自己不要的是什么;
不知道自己要什么结果,不知道自己不要什么结果。

也许这些都是不必要的烦恼,也许这些都拥有极其简单的答案;
也许这些都是我自找的痛苦,也许这些都会让我自己成为傻瓜。

Once again… I’m lost.

Don’t know what I myself want, don’t know what I myself don’t want;
Don’t know what results I myself want, don’t know what results I myself don’t want.

May be these trouble aren’t necessary, may be these problems does have easy answer;
May be I get these trouble all because of my own, and may be these, would make me an idiot.

一直都对自己灌输,“感情是双方面的”。即使只有一个人拼命的付出,这段感情并不是其表面上看到的如此。无论是友情或爱情,如果双方以不同的态度来对待此感情,好友并非好友,爱人并非爱人。

前些日子觉得他们是我近期的好朋友,但却发觉到大家只过着自己的生活。好久都没和他们出来了,之前还常出来晚餐宵夜的,几乎看对方的脸看到腻!哈哈(冷笑)… 前些日子,都是我约他们出来晚餐宵夜的。若没约,大家就各自走各自的,也不会说他们来约我。

并不是特地强调说只有我在这段友情里付出,而是觉得有时候大家都可以互相约出来。难道我没有约你出来,就真的没义气吗?当然,以上只是一个例子。

I had always telling myself, "Relationship is about two people". If there’s only one person who are willing to give, the relationship does not shape like what it looks like. No matter friendship or love, if both party does not treat the relationship the same way, best friends might not be best, couple might be single.

I do felt that we were best friends last time, but recently i found out we are just living on our own. Its been a long time didn’t come out with them, last time we used to have dinner and supper together, almost facing each other until a boring state! Haha… In those days, its me that asked them out for dinner and supper. If not, we will just eat on our own, and they rarely ask me out.

I wasn’t mean that I’m the only one who willing to give out in these relationships, its just that sometimes either of us can invite others out, it does not necessary that only one person who do the inviting jobs. Of cause, above is just an example of relationship problems.

昨天,星期六。去朋友家的一个烧烤聚会,都是些旧朋友。聊啊聊的,渐渐的觉得,我和旧朋友之间已隔着一道大河,我到不了对岸…
刚开始,我们肯定是聊近况,“最近在哪里干什么,在那里的生活还不错吧?”之类的话题。当话题去到其他朋友的身上时,我就只有听的份了。有些朋友考试不是很理想;有些朋友则工作做得还蛮不错!
最让我惊讶的是,有个好朋友,去年年底见了个面,却完全没问她的近况。而昨天在知道,她交了男朋友,甚至分了手!!
天啊!我是什么朋友啊?!怎么会酱!昨天就跟了个朋友说,我不知道这算不算是个借口。“我前阵子就不见了手机,旧朋友的电话号码都不见了”…
也许这就是为什么最近一直觉得生活上空虚、寂寞…也许我的真实个性就是这么自顾自…也许我就是这么的贪新厌旧…

Yesterday, Saturday. I went to a BBQ gathering at my friend’s house, most of them was the old friends. Chit and chat, I kinda felt that, there’s a big big river cross between me and those old friends, i can’t cross to the other side…
In the beginning, we surely chatting about "Where had you been recently, and is your life over there cool?" kind of topic. But when the topic slowly changed to other friends, I only take place in listening. Some friends does not make it well in their examination; some friends does well in their jobs…
"News" that shock me the most, is from a good friend, although I met her last December, but I didn’t ask her where had she been. Until yesterday, I heard that she had a boy friend, and broke up like few months ago!!
Oh god! What a friend am I?! I told a friend yesterday, but I think that is an excuse. "I lost my phone last time, and I also lost all old friends’ phone numbers"…
Maybe this is why I felt empty and loneliness recently… Maybe this is the real characteristic of me in only taking care of my own… Maybe I really am forgetful about the pass…

半夜没事干,听歌…流行曲,喜哈,摇滚,舞曲,抒情,经典等等,一一的播放出情绪的节奏…
半夜没事干,上网…GMail, Hotmail, What-O, MyUtar, Friendster, MSN, 一个接一个地过目…
当歌曲播到那首歌,“被遗忘的时光”,正好在看别人的Friendster profile…看到她的男友…觉得他们还蛮配的~~不知怎么的,感觉上过去的时光,都被遗忘了,被我自己遗忘了。一时间回不过神来,只是点击着Friendster profile的照片…一张张的,一页页的…

Its boring tonight, listening to songs… Pop, Hip Hop, Rock, Dance, Ballad, Classic and more, each play the rhythm of my feelings…
Its boring tonight, surfing the net… GMail, Hotmail, What-O, MyUtar, Friendster, MSN, one by one passing by…
When the song is playing, "The Forgotten Moment", I was reading other people’s Friendster profile… and I saw the profile of her boyfriend… I don’t know what is the reason, makes me felt that the time passing by, those moments passed, and been forgotten, by myself… I wasn’t realize by the time being, just looking and clicking on the photo album at the Friendster profile… each photo at a time, one after another…

    原以为明天(星期一)才能回家,谁知道今早起来妹妹来通电话:“你今天就可以回的了hor?我们现在在怡保,等下大哥去载你,然后来怡保看戏!”… 我肯定说好啦!可以早点回家,又可以看戏!

    吃了一顿 Sushi King ,看了一场“功夫之王”,很不错!哈哈!我大哥在了我后去 Sushi King 吃,过后才去会合我父亲他们。我和我大哥在 Sushi King 吃了六十多块噢!好久没吃 Sushi King 了!前几次吃得最贵的都二十多而已,今天则吃了三十 -_-"

    I was thinking that I will only be back on tomorrow (Monday), then unexpectedly my sister called right after i woke up, said that "You are able to come back by today right? We now at Ipoh, later big brother will go to drive you here for a movie before go back to Taiping!"… Surely I agreed!! Can go back earlier and some more  a movie!

    I took Sushi King as launch, watched "The Forbidden Kingdom", GREAT! HA HA! My big brother and I finished our launch at Sushi King before go to meet my parent. We spent RM60++ at Sushi King! Its been a long time since the last time I went to Sushi King, and most of time RM20++ is the maximum price i spent, today RM30++ -_-"

闷 Bored

今天,是很多朋友都回家乡后的第三天… 闷…

今天,是我不知道要干什么的一天… 闷…

今天,是星期天,明天才回家… 闷…

今天,我跟你讲了… 闷…

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Today, is the third day since most of my friends had went back to their hometown… bored…

Today, is a day that I don’t know what to do for so much free time… bored…

Today, is Sunday, I’ll be going back tomorrow… bored…

Today, I told you… bored…

完了!完了完了!考试完了…

有两科不是很理想,Enviromental Science 和 Management Principles。虽然不是说没信心,但看起来都有重考的可能性,特别是 MP。

有两科还称得上满意的,Construction Technology 1 和 Building Services and Equipment 1。虽然不是说肯定拿高分,但看起来应该会超过50%以上…

Management Principles 读了一整个晚上,但却用了四十五分钟来做会做的两题(全部四题);

Building Services and Equipment 1读了不到半天,但却用了一小时四十五分钟来做所有的题目(八题选四题,有一个三分小题不会做)。

Its OVER!! for first semester!!!

There are two subjects does not look so good, Enviromental Science and Management Principles. This isn’t that i don’t have confident, but if calculate the marks and my examination answer, they both have potential to fail, espacially Management Principles.

There are two subjects is considered good looking, Construction Technology 1 and Building Services and Equipment 1. Although not saying will get high marks, but most propably will be 50% and above!

I used a whole night to revise and study Management Principles, but I used 45 minutes to done two questions (all four questions in the paper);

I used half a night to revise and study Building Services and Equipment 1, but I used one hour and 45 minutes to done all questions (anwer 4 questions from 8, I skept one sub-questions that carried 3 marks).

昨天看到她和她的男朋友出现,心里好像好残留着一丝丝的感觉… 不甘愿?也许吧!

事情是如此,我去朋友家,而她男友就和我朋友同一屋檐下,遇见是理所当然的…

残留的感觉,是放不下吗?还是觉得不甘愿?不甘愿办不到,不甘愿得不到自己想要的东西…

有时候真的觉得自己很没用,觉得自己很白痴,觉得自己很幼稚,觉得自己在独唱傻瓜,觉得自己就是个小丑…

宵夜…

她说什么都没关系,但却说了“才不稀罕你请客!”

什么意思?她看不起我的钱吗?因为这不是我自己的血汗钱?还是我的身份完全就不配请她?

I saw she and her boy friend yesterday, there’s something felt in my heart… unwilling to give up? perhaps!

The situation is like this, I follow one of my friend back to his home, then her boy friend is one of the house-mate of my friend, so its normal that I will meet them…

What had been left in my feeling, is it means I haven’t give up? or unwilling to give up? or is that how the feel where people didn’t get what they want…

Sometimes felt that I’m just useless, felt that I’m an idiot, felt that I’m still too childish, felt that playing alone, felt that I’m just a clown acting fool…

Supper…

Whatever she said does not mind  me, but the sentence had out of her mouth "I don’t even scarce your treat of meal!"

What does it means? Is my money "cheap"? or perhaps this isn’t the money i earned myself? or I’m not even qualified to treat her meal?

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